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(no subject) [Aug. 7th, 2007|08:03 pm]
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I took her to the airport this evening. I was sad, but I hate showing it. Part of me is down, but the other part knows she'll be back. She bought a round-trip ticket to be back in March. After that, who knows. Maybe then she can stay depending on what she has going on.
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(no subject) [Jun. 7th, 2007|12:27 am]
Adam Blue
New project in the works - www.gamercombine.com

Stay tuned.
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(no subject) [Jun. 5th, 2007|11:29 pm]
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Well, Chad decided to move to Korea. Yeah. He's gonna go teach English there and save the money he earns. Why Korea? Well, because they pay more...but that's really because the price of things there are a lot more, so it kind of evens out. I think a Spanish speaking country would be the most beneficial...that or Germany.

But anyway, since he's gone I need a roommate. This came up just now and it freaks me out because I'm about to pay off my car and don't want to be out rent money in July!

But luckily, Jacob can move in. This will be awesome. With Terri and Lunky leaving, it's good that another in the group will be closer. Speaking of which, we need to plan a trip to go see them after they leave. I was thinking maybe in the fall, but whatever.

But anyway, I'm glad Jacob is moving in. I've always wanted good friends to move in, because honestly...good friends get along. Sean and I are a perfect hetero couple, and when Schiller and I moved in, it was laid back and fun. Plus, Jacob is into computers just like us, so we'll have many nights of fun...playing computer games.
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(no subject) [May. 8th, 2007|11:21 pm]
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I don't want to say too much, but It is possible that I might possibly in the future maybe get a job with a video game website/video game talk show. Adam Schiller sent me this job posting he found on Craig's List. I met with the guy and he told me a lot about what he's trying to achieve and it sounded incredible. I'm doing some small-time work for now, but next Thursday I might be on-air for the radio show.

This guy is a smart real estate investor and he told me about all the different things he's been doing to get far with this. As soon as I know I'm more 'in', I'll talk more about it.
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(no subject) [Apr. 16th, 2007|12:17 am]
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It's getting closer, but both Elaine and I have been able to accept it in our minds. I know after this I won't bother trying to get another girlfriend. I'm just going to enjoy myself. Last night a bunch of us were all going to go to City Streets, but Elaine didn't want to go...so naturally I was just going to meet up with her. She told me to go and she'll be with her friends. In some relationships that wouldn't happen. With Elaine and I, we're quite alright with whatever each one does.

Note, if you're in a relationship and you tend to get jealous....just end it. Because you will find a relationship where jealousy just cannot be an issue. The trust is a tight bond.

But last night was a little different. Elaine and I know we're going our separate ways. There's no reason for me to mope around. I'm with my friends, I'm at the club - I'm going to enjoy myself. So while we trust each other, we also view ourselves as free. Being with Elaine taught me how to be totally confident with myself. And last night that went into great use. I felt like I was back in the game, and acquired two numbers. I'm going back here soon. No girlfriend but meeting girls. And not meeting to find a girlfriend, I'm now meeting to simply have fun.

I remember how dark it felt when I was single. I was just still lost about myself. But things might be different now. I've figured out so much more about me just from being with Elaine. Luckily with Sean and Chad around, it will be easy to accept being single again. And hopefully keep me from attaining that desperate mindset. That will cause you to make choices that you wouldn't in any other frame of mind.

So I feel like I reached a point in my life where I've accomplished a hidden goal: finding myself. I think the next step is figuring out what I want to do with my life. I know I won't be doing security forever...but in order to get a job doing what I want, I need a degree.

But there are other things I could be doing with that time: Working on my music, working on the website ideas I've had, work on my script writing...plus a few other things under the hat.
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(no subject) [Apr. 2nd, 2007|12:54 pm]
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Elaine went to the immigration office to try and extend her visa. They denied, so she'll be flying back on May 10th(around then).

She was talking about us getting a marriage license so she could finish the summer courses, but I told her doing something like that is pointless for only a few months. She'd be leaving in August anyway, so we would be just putting off the inevitable.
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(no subject) [Feb. 28th, 2007|10:55 am]
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It has been a while. Nothing has been going on. I just hang out with Elaine and play video games. So, I've always been thinking how I wish I never moved out and got a job, but instead went to school, because by now I'd be done. But lately I've been thinking about how I'm glad I didn't go to school yet. I've needed a chance to find out who I am, and what I want out of life. I want to be able to take advantage of being in school and appreciate everything it offers me. If I went to school when I was 18, I wouldn't have cared too much, my GPA would have been low, I would be studying things I don't care about, etc, etc... Because I'm just now figuring out what I want to do. I now enjoy studying during my free time.

On a side note, people tell me what I've studied doesn't matter because I looked it up on Wikipedia. That must be a way of getting out of being wrong, because Wikipedia sites its sources. So, if you had any doubt of the contents, you could literally look it up in a book if that happens to be more convincing to the non-believer.

But anyway, I know when I go to school I'll be making the best of it, because I'm at that point in my life where I can appreciate it, and I know what I want out of it.
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(no subject) [Dec. 18th, 2006|06:36 pm]
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(no subject) [Dec. 7th, 2006|10:05 pm]
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This is going to sound stupid, but today I became saddened after running over a squirrel. First off, I was driving pretty slow, as I was just coming from my house. I saw the squirrel. He was to my left crossing the street and stopped as he saw me coming. As I thought I passed him, he must have ran under my car(driving a Denali) because I could tell I ran over something with my rear wheels. I look back in my rear-view mirror at a squirrel lying in the street...twitching. I was so sad. It was bad enough seeing him lying there...but the fact that he was twitching...I almost wanted to try and save him. But what the fuck am I going to do?

So, like any little kid, I called my mom. I felt comfort in spilling my feelings onto her. She told me, 'don't feel bad. squirrels are stupid.'

Thanks Mom.
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(no subject) [Dec. 2nd, 2006|04:25 pm]
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Well, Elaine and I are in love. I can't believe how much fun we have and how much we just goof off with eachother. It's really like hanging out with a best friend. I always 'can't wait' to tell her something new, or show her something new I found.

But the problem is, is she doesn't plan on living here. When she gets back to Brazil, she'll have many high paying jobs lined up for her. She'll be making much more than I will, and I'm talking in Dollars not Reals. She has her life there. But I on the other hand have a career that keeps growing every year. And I have multiple options of other things I can get into. I have my life here. I love Brazil, but I don't think I could live there.

So when April comes around, it might just be over. She goes back to Brazil, and I stay here. She would like to get married, but she wants to be in Brazil.

I don't know how this is going to work out.
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